scorpio’s Blog

valentine day, a valentine day, its suppose to e a happy valentine day….

a sentence, few words….it combine and becme and bloody sharp knife.

it just stab in slowly and slowly…..i stunt i really stunt the moment it stab into my heart….the blood slowly and slowly drop one by one…can feel that , really can feel that howthe blood drop archieve it shape and leave the heart by drip.

y the sentence come just like that during the time that i really put my heart into it, give all my love out, take care of it sincerely ….WHY?

i sad i cry i try to hid it!!!!!but the knife just inside and wont come out…

i felt being play around, toss around…

i try to give myself some moments of quiet in the night…is it my problem? is it i make it?bloody hell night…..i wondering is it my giving out sincerely become my died weapon? maybe it was…ever thought will take care of her or the r/s well ofr the future but now a thorn stab in half way …..the thorn seem like stab in very hard and very deep…HOW?

ever thought, i wont let another girl in my life down again, will protect her watever….never drop another girl inside shopping mall….

but now …yes i didnt , but i had been left….another big joke of the day…LOL…wandering in the mall…and yet dunno really know how to drive out..haha….first time…and yes it was first time!!!!!!

sat inside taxi and being fetch off…haha….FINE!

i try not to hurt anybdy but end up fuckup myself.!!! Well done to myself…

clap to myself….clap to myself…….deserve to be blood…..

a few mth of time being together, a hundred hrs of together, a thousand of min together……

the feeling is still unforgetable, the feeling is still so strong, the feeling is still so fresh….

the decision make is not wrong , the fate is not wrong, the timing also not wrong…

she change my life, change my life imagination……

no longer alone ,no longer need to suffer things alone anymore

like the goddess that warm up my heart , open up my heart….

i will treasure it …….thanks!my chou dear dear–chai

every day in our life just fill up with work ,home, activity…

the one of me that keep on trying to look for activity and interesting things other than work…the one that keep on wondering able to meet one partner for future..the one of me everyday also keep on wondering…

find find find…find find find…

all the things that had been find is expensive items…zzz

car, camera, and house…all highly expenses…lol…

car: had been kena poison by car modification…oh shit…gonna burn big hole in pocket..anyway this is my dream since young whenever see other people’s car so pretty…i want to do it ..i want to do it…this isthe statemet in my mind..but i going to create car that only belong to me..but sorry huh..my style not ah beng style..haha

camera: progressing…this also another unstoppable hobby…i find the interesting part of taking photo since i start to step in this stage…althought i not a professional…but i will try my best to get good photo…this is wat i thought when i had my first touching photo been took..a good photo is able to let u understand the feeling that the photographer wanna bring out…it able to make u feel happy also…this is wat i thought…i thought…..getting all the necessary tools for improving is important also…but i will try to control..haha,..hopefully able to do it..lol

house?? yeah …bought already…. thinking of decor it all the while but now had been stop le..haha…so many things to take care…how to do it? money also another issue…lol..so just try to maintain the current situation…lol…last time had been wondering to find a good and suitable candidate to become the house master”wife..haha

just walk walk walk…play play play…also never wonder that i will meet the one that is fated ….and yet it come to find me…haha…everything look so fated and coincidence…everything just happen till so fine…share same thinking, same idea…bla bla bla..  even just this two things itself is able to make us two to walk along till old le..haha…we just start like that…no pak toh or wat..haha…good lei…and yet this is wat i feel like to treasure…especially those sentence that sweeten and warm my heart ….cannot said here..haha..wat i can said is will walk along with her all the way and stand beside each other…hehe

After such a long time f silent inside my blog place, today a scary or surprising things make me feel wanna writ it down to share with my friends.

Friends, hope u all really becareful next time when u in jb…At first,i keep on hearing friend told me that a lot of crime in jb but i still dont believe so much cos nothing had happen to me until now..And yet now i gotta change my mind le…LOL

I met with a friend today when travelling out from jb to sg. While on the road near city square(jalan Ah fook), I saw one malay guy whose wear casual and smart . He approached silently and fast rate towards one of the two gal whose hold one big bag. He start to unzip the bag and try to get something inside the bag. I thought he was the friend of that two chinese gal( but i got a bit of suspect cos seldom got chinese shopping together with malay friend), so i didnt care much and chat with my friend.

Who knows that, the gal suspect something and turn around. The guy faster withdraw his dirty hands and look around to pretend nothing had happened. Thank god that the gal got high concentration…. i wanna shout "Pencuri" but didnt shout out…lol

Anyway, hope all my friends whose read this blog please take note when u on the road next time.. if u holding a big bag or wat try to grab it in front of u at the same time gals also can protect themself other than these robbery things. For guys, maybe can get those bag that hard to reach inner of bag. Nowadays a lot back pack that can be access only when u removing the bag from u back. lol

A lot of bad feeling nowadays…

A lot of sadness feeling nowadays….

y?

recently heard a few sad story from my friends….

Is it life really so short? and y the fate was like that?

Y a healthy person can get cancer suddenly? y can get incurable sickness suddenly? y ? y ? Y?

although the person was not myself…but it also damn sad when heard their story….and some of the time really felt can understand their feeling when really heard this kind of news fall on themself….

and always is the most upset when the news came after u starting to archieve the highest point in ur life…

Y the god was playing with the fate of us?…..

tired le…no feeling le..not from work but deep from my heart…

heart become smaller…blood had been sucked up…all wrinkles had appeared…

y? dun know y?

just feel that…

maybe its really was the time i let myself off from those trouble that make myself sad, sadness or troublesome…

its time i gotta to go off..

i had helped and do watever i can do…i had wish whatever i can wished…. the doors of light leading should appear le, i just need to find the correct door….

ermm….recently had been felt bored, busy and not busy…LOl…a lot of feeling had been circle surrounding.

spent a  lot to invest  rc helicopter to get it as another hobby, Bought a DSLR camera to continue photo taking hobby…get involved on such two big hobby will still feel bored sometime althought not really had time to carried out this two hobby,….lol…

Other that that still want to go join wat diver club or yoga…haha…how come ha?is it every people will be like that sometime or just only me?

Well, really dunno…

Thinking of planning a trip to Tibet.. had get friend to join but still cancel at the end due require tour guide…but i dun like going with tour guide sia…really limit your own timing…bored ah…

But definitely, i will go for overseas trip this year cos i planning to let my camera to have its first time of taking overseas scenery …haha

where should i go?new zealand?japan?zzzzz.

This two mth had let me gone through some stages which i never went through b4…. it can said bad, sad, sadness and happy…..

Well, gone through this many stages had let me know that there is really no fairness in this world….it also let me learn that u gotto sacrifice if u wanna let others happy.

I really dun know how to describe this kind of feeling…its sour and damn sour….

well nvm..i also dun know wat am i toking about le…just let me know she is fine and happy, then is ok le….

Now is the time for me to hibernate again…..lol….

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Sigh…today seems everything is not in order….all was bad to me ….

Early in the morning, had been mistaken by a friend. Saying me this  and that while i just show concern..wat should i said?sigh

In the afternoon, still going to see my big big boss…manager..sien…

Wat’s the problem?all regarding my requesting for transfer department. He keeps on pressing me and threaten me in another way.

example:

1)If u asking for transfer and there is no job available at the moment while the other maintenance line dont want u cos u want to transfer..so how?where u want to work?u know the company will how to settle u?   

2)Company train u mainly for maintenance site, u think they will so easily allow u go other places?

3)in ur letter, u seem like demanding…well, i will react to how ur demanding is. If it was too much, then most probably i will use another way to treat it also .

4)U only starting in this line for short time, and u have the healthy problem already( cos i using the skin allergy as excuses while i not really serious), u know wat will the company react?

5)U want to be stubborn in this transfer?u can go ahead, but i tell u ,u better prepare for the worse case.

Sigh, might as well said cannot be transfer…..

Dunno, now really headache….looks like a small issue become so such a big issue already.

Really no place that i can really telling my problem ….only here….